living funeral

well my biggest problem is that who to invite.i mean we effect people we don't even notice and they would want to see you even though you don't know there name or any thing but they will want to express respect,sorrow or what ever.a funeral is like a party of appreciation for the person.i mean it is not happy but it is a gathering and you hear people say stuff about you that you never thought they would of said. it is a nice idea and i would like to see that while I'm alive and hear good things that these people think of me.it is a shame that we don't hear this while were alive because i think if people heard things good about them more often maybe they would be better people.i don't know

how did i feel about this?
well i think it is some what comforting and unsettling to think about this. i mean to think about not existing any more having the experience of complete loses of cautiousness. also looking at the complete change in someone when there dead and thinking that will be you. death over all is not scary it is the dieing that is scary. getting dead. when we see death it is a negeative thing but i think we look at dieing as bad. also i know before someone dies a flood of dopamines and they get in to a good feeling so mabye dieing might be enjoyable. so we have a biological fear of death which is understandable we cant change that so easyly but why not try we will get there soon.